It could be easier for other people, but I just don’t know why I always get stranded in this matter. Some friends ask me to give up while some encourage me to go on if I know what I am doing as I know myself the best. Either one could be the tonic in solving this problem while another may put myself further deep in the grief. The situation forces me to lead my life by adopting one of the ways then followed by another. During the mission, I have found out that I demand less and less as I already understand the theory which says the higher the demand, the bigger the disappointment. However, sometimes I just can’t figure why I can be enjoying and happy for a couple of hours but in the end, a little matter will arise within the blinking of an eye and drastically change the fate of my life on that particular day. I have already turned 20, I really hope myself not to struggle in this stifling problem anymore and squander so much time in talking and sharing about this with my friends. I wonder why there will never be a pleased outcome following the sharing or rather story-telling session. I am like addicted to talking about the topic, will appear kind of abnormal if I stop dealing with this affair one day. Who can be my savior now?.......Perhaps only the person who creates the lock can unlock himself with the only key. As the time passes, the key will finally appear. Winning or losing key? Though the latter may free me from any anguish, I somehow look forward to the victory.